Thanksgiving has always been my favorite holiday. I inherited that from my Mother (God rest her soul). Christmas is gr8, sure....but the gift giving thing does'nt make me stop and think about my "life" as a whole... Thanksgiving does.
This Thanksgiving is going to be another tough one for us, with the loss of my son, Kenny, last April. Just one more member of my family that will now be missing on this special day.
When I look back over the years, especialy since 1996...when I first ordered my 97 CompTA and got into the SLP Engineering "thing".... I get a lump in my throat......
It all started with the loss of Bandit, our half malimute half sheperd. What an awesome dog... most well behaved and faithful dog in the world..... cancer took him at age 10, in 1996........ Then a stroke hit my Mother in August of 1999....she nevered fully recovered and died November of 99...... then congestive heart failure in June of 2000 almost took my beloved Nikona, my first wolfdog...my "soul animal".....she was the highlight of my life ... she lived another 2 years on 259.00 a month worth of heart medication... i cut our budget to compensate..Mary was out of work starting Jan of 2000..... we also cut our vacations out and weekend trips...for boarding Nik was out of the question...and we had to administer her meds at 7am, 11am, 3pm, and 7pm, every single day....... but it was worth it.... then it really hit the fan in 2001, first Ginger died right before Christmas , our half Akita half Husky...we had since we got together, before we got married... she was 17 years old when she passed away..... then tragedy struck again, Nikona went into congestive heart failure again in 2002, and they couldnt stop it....she died in my arms.....something i will never forget.... then Smokey, our cat of 14 years..passed away, it really hit Mary hard...... we got a break for year, till April of 2004...when Kenny was killed........
Am I feeling sorry for myself? No. Thats not the intention here. Of course I'm not thankfull for all that tragedy above.......who would be.?......but I am thankfull for the opportunity to share my life with all of them, you never forget, you just learn to live with it... Im thankfull God granted me the chance to make a difference in thier lives, like they did mine, for my strength, my health, my good job, and my safety from phyical harm, so that I could provide for all close to me. Im thankfull for the special gift God granted me, the gift of "a way with animals"..... so that I can continue to make a difference in more lives, and give them a chance they wouldnt have if they tried on thier own...... Im thankfull for the new creatures God has blessed my life with, Reno, Keona the wolfdog, and Shelby, our rescued Golden Retriever... they make every day special for me, in so many ways......
Im thankfull I had a chance to grow up a surfer in Hawaii.....thankfull for the chance to make the decision of either stay there or go on with more serious aspects of life and seek good employment....no remain a beach bum in paradise glassing surfboards for 10 bucks an hour........ thankfull for all the places Ive traveled to, and how many times I got to travel while working for the Govt, the people I met, the places i visited, and the things I got to experience...and that i was kept safe.....
Im thankfull for all the good folks ive met on the internet.....especially the f body folks, many who became very close friends after meeting them in person.... and all the experiences and good times our two cars brought us.....
Im thankfull God has seen it fit that be given a chance to go on at 57 and start my rescue organization, which i hope to continue and expand after I retire...thankfull im physically able to work out everyday.......to keep myself fit for the many tasks to come the next years in building a sanctuary and handling wolfdogs....
yes, the list is endless.......it really is...
so tomorrow........ as im eating Thanksgiving dinner with mary and her parents, who are 91 and 87....ill be thinking of all this.....at times, i may clench my fists in emotional pain under the table, and other times take a deep breath and smile with a nod of my head......
no matter whether you believe in God or not.......thats an individuals choice... be thankfull tomorrow.... because we take so much for granted, folks...........
if you travel...please stay safe... dont take chances......
Have a great Thanksgiving everyone...........
Wolfman luvs yall........
This Thanksgiving is going to be another tough one for us, with the loss of my son, Kenny, last April. Just one more member of my family that will now be missing on this special day.
When I look back over the years, especialy since 1996...when I first ordered my 97 CompTA and got into the SLP Engineering "thing".... I get a lump in my throat......
It all started with the loss of Bandit, our half malimute half sheperd. What an awesome dog... most well behaved and faithful dog in the world..... cancer took him at age 10, in 1996........ Then a stroke hit my Mother in August of 1999....she nevered fully recovered and died November of 99...... then congestive heart failure in June of 2000 almost took my beloved Nikona, my first wolfdog...my "soul animal".....she was the highlight of my life ... she lived another 2 years on 259.00 a month worth of heart medication... i cut our budget to compensate..Mary was out of work starting Jan of 2000..... we also cut our vacations out and weekend trips...for boarding Nik was out of the question...and we had to administer her meds at 7am, 11am, 3pm, and 7pm, every single day....... but it was worth it.... then it really hit the fan in 2001, first Ginger died right before Christmas , our half Akita half Husky...we had since we got together, before we got married... she was 17 years old when she passed away..... then tragedy struck again, Nikona went into congestive heart failure again in 2002, and they couldnt stop it....she died in my arms.....something i will never forget.... then Smokey, our cat of 14 years..passed away, it really hit Mary hard...... we got a break for year, till April of 2004...when Kenny was killed........
Am I feeling sorry for myself? No. Thats not the intention here. Of course I'm not thankfull for all that tragedy above.......who would be.?......but I am thankfull for the opportunity to share my life with all of them, you never forget, you just learn to live with it... Im thankfull God granted me the chance to make a difference in thier lives, like they did mine, for my strength, my health, my good job, and my safety from phyical harm, so that I could provide for all close to me. Im thankfull for the special gift God granted me, the gift of "a way with animals"..... so that I can continue to make a difference in more lives, and give them a chance they wouldnt have if they tried on thier own...... Im thankfull for the new creatures God has blessed my life with, Reno, Keona the wolfdog, and Shelby, our rescued Golden Retriever... they make every day special for me, in so many ways......
Im thankfull I had a chance to grow up a surfer in Hawaii.....thankfull for the chance to make the decision of either stay there or go on with more serious aspects of life and seek good employment....no remain a beach bum in paradise glassing surfboards for 10 bucks an hour........ thankfull for all the places Ive traveled to, and how many times I got to travel while working for the Govt, the people I met, the places i visited, and the things I got to experience...and that i was kept safe.....
Im thankfull for all the good folks ive met on the internet.....especially the f body folks, many who became very close friends after meeting them in person.... and all the experiences and good times our two cars brought us.....
Im thankfull God has seen it fit that be given a chance to go on at 57 and start my rescue organization, which i hope to continue and expand after I retire...thankfull im physically able to work out everyday.......to keep myself fit for the many tasks to come the next years in building a sanctuary and handling wolfdogs....
yes, the list is endless.......it really is...
so tomorrow........ as im eating Thanksgiving dinner with mary and her parents, who are 91 and 87....ill be thinking of all this.....at times, i may clench my fists in emotional pain under the table, and other times take a deep breath and smile with a nod of my head......
no matter whether you believe in God or not.......thats an individuals choice... be thankfull tomorrow.... because we take so much for granted, folks...........
if you travel...please stay safe... dont take chances......
Have a great Thanksgiving everyone...........
Wolfman luvs yall........
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