I finally got a breath to talk about this...
Well, yesterday, since I realized this isn't going to work out for me, when my boss offered a transfer to another area of the company, I decided to swallow my pride and take it. It's a bit of a demotion, but it will be great for me while I decide where else I can go with my career... plus it will have a higher base pay, and I'll get my life back and only have to work 40 hours a week. If I do well there, I can go to management in that division of the company, which wouldn't be bad at all... but moreso, I can now get enough time to interview at other places and see if they may be a better fit for me.
I was happy about this...
BUT...
Today, my boss calls me in to the office to basically tell me he didn't think I belonged at the company anymore and he wanted to fire me. This is after for the last 6 months I did everything they asked promising that it would lead to results... while I know there is no guarantee for this, I was the only person who followed it and wasn't improving. He also promised to all of us that if we gave it our all and it still didn't work out that they would find another place for us in the company. It seemed like they wanted to take that away from me... so this morning I was in a DOG FIGHT just to stay employed...
He and my new sales director were questioning my belief and commitment to the company and thought that I would be happier elsewhere. Maybe that's true, but my performance at my old job DID indicate I would do very well in the new position (the new position is similar, but I don't actually have to make the sale anymore, I just have to make initial contact and then pass the prospect on to a banker to finish the sale). I was ALWAYS the top dialer, and had the most credit pulls of any banker on my team... that means I will do very well in this new position, since that's all I have to do. So I said to them, "companies look out for themselves. How is getting rid of me going to benefit this company when you KNOW I can do the job I am going to?" THeir response was, "we only want people who are bought in here, and we don't think you believe."
I got that hair-raising tingle down my spine and got pretty irritated and I said, "I just went through 4 months of listening to everything you said, doing everything you asked, and never getting results. I gave 60 hours a week to this, trying harder and harder to succeed at this... doing everything I was told would work and nothing did. So you ask did that shake my confidence in myself? ABSOLUTLEY. In the company? Yeah, a little... It would do that to any human being who went through what I did."
He cut me off, and said, "so this new position will be what you need to restore your confidence in yourself and this company?" I said, "I think it could only help."
With that, my half-hour interrogation ended INSTANTLY. My sales director and team captain got up and just left, and my boss put in the transfer order. It happened so fast... it was surreal... I spent thirty minutes in a dogfight for my job, and then all of a sudden they decided I could go. Like they were hazing me or something, and they never had any actual intentions of letting me go..... It was the weirdest thing I'd ever sat through and right as they were walking me upstairs to the new position, I was so confused and pissed off about the meeting and what they just put me through that I nearly turned right back around and went into the office and told them I was leaving... luckily, I controlled my emotions and got upstairs to do some training on the new job.
We'll see how it goes... it's not my final stop for employment by any means... but it's a transitional phase that will help. Maybe I'll find my niche with this company and be able to stay, or maybe I'll find something better for myself.
Bottom line... on to a new job, same company, higher base pay, same benfits, less hours. I'll eat this up for a while.
Well, yesterday, since I realized this isn't going to work out for me, when my boss offered a transfer to another area of the company, I decided to swallow my pride and take it. It's a bit of a demotion, but it will be great for me while I decide where else I can go with my career... plus it will have a higher base pay, and I'll get my life back and only have to work 40 hours a week. If I do well there, I can go to management in that division of the company, which wouldn't be bad at all... but moreso, I can now get enough time to interview at other places and see if they may be a better fit for me.
I was happy about this...
BUT...
Today, my boss calls me in to the office to basically tell me he didn't think I belonged at the company anymore and he wanted to fire me. This is after for the last 6 months I did everything they asked promising that it would lead to results... while I know there is no guarantee for this, I was the only person who followed it and wasn't improving. He also promised to all of us that if we gave it our all and it still didn't work out that they would find another place for us in the company. It seemed like they wanted to take that away from me... so this morning I was in a DOG FIGHT just to stay employed...
He and my new sales director were questioning my belief and commitment to the company and thought that I would be happier elsewhere. Maybe that's true, but my performance at my old job DID indicate I would do very well in the new position (the new position is similar, but I don't actually have to make the sale anymore, I just have to make initial contact and then pass the prospect on to a banker to finish the sale). I was ALWAYS the top dialer, and had the most credit pulls of any banker on my team... that means I will do very well in this new position, since that's all I have to do. So I said to them, "companies look out for themselves. How is getting rid of me going to benefit this company when you KNOW I can do the job I am going to?" THeir response was, "we only want people who are bought in here, and we don't think you believe."
I got that hair-raising tingle down my spine and got pretty irritated and I said, "I just went through 4 months of listening to everything you said, doing everything you asked, and never getting results. I gave 60 hours a week to this, trying harder and harder to succeed at this... doing everything I was told would work and nothing did. So you ask did that shake my confidence in myself? ABSOLUTLEY. In the company? Yeah, a little... It would do that to any human being who went through what I did."
He cut me off, and said, "so this new position will be what you need to restore your confidence in yourself and this company?" I said, "I think it could only help."
With that, my half-hour interrogation ended INSTANTLY. My sales director and team captain got up and just left, and my boss put in the transfer order. It happened so fast... it was surreal... I spent thirty minutes in a dogfight for my job, and then all of a sudden they decided I could go. Like they were hazing me or something, and they never had any actual intentions of letting me go..... It was the weirdest thing I'd ever sat through and right as they were walking me upstairs to the new position, I was so confused and pissed off about the meeting and what they just put me through that I nearly turned right back around and went into the office and told them I was leaving... luckily, I controlled my emotions and got upstairs to do some training on the new job.
We'll see how it goes... it's not my final stop for employment by any means... but it's a transitional phase that will help. Maybe I'll find my niche with this company and be able to stay, or maybe I'll find something better for myself.
Bottom line... on to a new job, same company, higher base pay, same benfits, less hours. I'll eat this up for a while.
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